My Money Story...

As a kid, I was often told, when I wanted something, "we can't afford it." Money was something other people had, and I didn't. I unconsciously decided to make do. I unconsciously decided a lot of things.

During my schooling years, my parents did not want me to get a job, they wanted me to focus on doing well in school. I didn't need to focus on doing well in school. I was bored and scared in school because it was easy and there was bullying. I baby sat and I did chores at home to have some money to experiment with the unconscious anger from my boredom. I bought things for myself: clothes (from thrift shops), food I wanted, and magazines, and I went to and rented movies. 

My parents were both teachers and took me and my brothers travelling a lot when we were kids. I am glad we did this! 

I was empowered to travel and explore in later life.

My parents matched my high school scholarships with money so I could travel after high school graduation.

When I got back, my first paid job was serving tables. Next I worked as a staff member at a kids wilderness camp. I only wanted to do jobs I loved. I only ever found jobs I liked. I went tree planting, and for a while I worked for free to become a paid model. I got a contract to do modelling in Japan, but by then I was already so sickened by my agent's obsession with the way my body carried fat; I was eating only two small meals a day, not to stay skinny, but because I was making do. I turned it down and went back to tree planting.

Then, by accident, I got the most important job in the world! The one that some people spend thousands of dollars to have! It's a hard one, because you don't get holidays, or breaks or any pay. 

In fact if you want any time off you have to pay someone. 

This job is called Motherhood. 

Motherhood was my favourite job in the world. I devoted myself to my children growing into the fullest expressions of themselves, intending to honour how nature designed humans. I become ever more at odds with modern culture; I home-birthed, nursed, learned alongside and with my children on beaches, river trails and in gardens and campgrounds while their dads grappled with how to be men and fathers, and providers.

After 10 years of single motherhood, and 11 years of married motherhood, I bent under the  pressure to do it all as a mother, the being with, the patience, the space holding the grocery shopping the cooking the cleaning the laundry the accounting the driving the nursing the social training the emotional support the homework enforcement the house looking good the proper exercise regimes the after school activities the pleasing, supporting and managing and defending myself against the husband who wanted me to GO AND WORK. To earn money.

I broke down I lost my marriage, my home and, 

in an everyday way, my children. 

In retrospect, I see that when I came of age, the Authentic Adult Initiations I instinctively knew were supposed to happen did not, and parts of me remained in a child ego state, in scarcity, giving my center away. Becoming a mother on the edge of modern culture, without a village, gave me a lot of practice being resourceful and self-reliant but living in the scarcity story cost me almost everything.

This changed profoundly when I encountered Possibility Management, full of distinctions, tools, thoughtmaps and processes for evolving consciousness and creating Gaian Gameworlds.

Emotional Healing Processes, Initiations and thoughtware upgrades started to happen, and I shifted from "making do," to CREATION.

Becoming Money became a fascinating adventure that I wanted to share, so I created Money Club!

My Money Story...

I was born in a poor family until my father chose to dedicate his life to make money. 

This meant that he moved away to work for the biggest Canadian fossil fuel company. I grew up seeing him twice per year. 

My mother worked as a high school teacher, a competitive swimming coach and a Greenhouse entrepreneur.

I grew up with the "we're broke" story, even if my parents dedicated their lives to get out of poverty. I consciously chose to do things differently.

I started working as soon as I could walk; planting seeds, weeding under tables, watering plants.

I got my first job as a weekly babysitter when I was nine years old. 

I got my first real job when I was 12 years old, as a dishwasher. 

I got a series of jobs throughout high school and University.

Meanwhile, I slowly extracted myself from the Patriarchy. Little by little.

I stopped buying clothing, I grew my own vegetables, I stopped using soap and shaving my body... and so on.

This became my philosophy: "the less money I spend, the less money I have to make, the more time I can spend on creating what I want".

This year I have made the commitment not to enslave myself to someone else's gameworld as an 'employee'.

By holding space for Money Club, I have taken responsibility for creating the little money that I need to live the extraordinary life I was born to live.